Sunday 10 July 2016

我想说

即将踏入21岁的生涯

可脑海里充满的是满满的回忆

有一首歌是这么唱的

我不想我不想不想长大

:/

回想从前

我有一帮一起闹的好朋友

直到我选择离开以后

大家的距离也那么的疏远

…………

每次渴望的短暂的聚集

也不一定全成员到齐

毕竟

大家各有各的行业

好像

分岔路口后

大家都没有拐弯。

从我们

变成了我。

新的环境

新的朋友

一切都必须重来

选择的是自己从来没有碰过的饭碗

尝尝后

才知道这碗饭不容易

跟我同桌吃饭的人

不再那么单纯

大家夹的菜肴

好像都没有到过别人的盘碗

好吧

认命吧

大人的世界

还是现实点

才能活过来

:'/

这碗饭

我没试过

吃后感嘛

就挺新鲜的

只是有时吃大口了

就啃着了

在这里嘛

啃着了就自己抠喉

还渴望有谁拍拍你的背部吗

别傻了

:')


这条路

既然已经走过头了

也不能回头了

就只好咬着牙尖走下去

我不祈求生活好过一些

只希望身边多些想法一致的知己

至少

有人懂你的坚持

有人懂你的逞强

有人懂你的笑容

甚至

懂你往里吞的泪水。


刘青云说:

人生中最大的樂趣來自於,做一些別人認為你做不到的事。

不要去在意他人的话语

有些话

听听就好

最终的决定权

还是属于自己

别怕选了人家认为坎坷的路

或许坎坷后

等着你的是铺好的红地毯

让你走上最高端至上的宝座


——至少你尝试过——


Friday 29 April 2016

再见 好吗

话该怎么说出口

有些事情

有些情感

并不是你想说的那样

可你却偏偏没有勇气

因为你知道

说出来

会造成伤害

明明很努力地拐弯

说明真相

怎么可以那么的。。。

可以不可以给我一把枪

我不枪毙你

我枪毙我自己

怎么连说出口的勇气都没有

每次都是这个样

然后最后结果却一样是伤害

或者更深

。。。。。。。。。

我很王八

我很智障

我很傻样

都我的错

好吗

可以远离这么一个不正常的人类吗

爱情不适合我

我也不适合爱情

就像一匹野马

只适合放纵在扩大的草原

而不是在马棚内

再见还是朋友

好吗

Sunday 6 March 2016

Hi :)

Hi :)
To Izan
The only thing I know about you

The one who wore the same blue shirt as mine
The one who having big eyes
The one who having charming smiley
The one who attracted me a lotssss
:3

It's something special
To meet you on the plane
To chat with you half the journey
Another half i just slept 
*v*

Though lastly we didn't leave any contacts for each
But leave in my heart
<3

Just to remind me of you here
Maybe
Someday
We would meet up once again
Who knows
:D

KL - Seremban
Isn't far away
Right?
^_^

By : Yingyin

Sunday 26 October 2014

Please Leave, I Bet.

Broken heart again
Again
and again
and 
it's all about you again
HAHA

funny right
:]

Why?
It had passed for long time
and everything just seems better
but why you did that?
Haa?
Fine
Understood

Whose idea?
Your's or her's?
Kay.
No prob.
Go ahead.
I'll leave.

Last time for me to being heart broken due to you kay.
Enough ?
You're just shitty
If you wanna leave
Why do you still giving hope there
Ahaa?
Just leave forever
Don't ever come back
Can ?
</3

I don't feel anything ady
But then your action?
May I ask why ?
I just want to know
WHY
Haa
Fine
I typed
and deleted
and typed
and deleted
again and again
but I didn't click 'send'

alright
it's over
won't be the foolish anymore
the very last time
and please
get out of my life fully if you're still a man
I wanna live normally
Ok ?
:']

Tuesday 8 April 2014

Bye Once

I thought I can
I thought I'm tough enough
As if I really do so
:')

Hours by hours
Days by days
Although it was only the second day
I felt bad
Without you
I mean
Can't even see you once
Or keep touch with you
Just don't know why
Maybe
I had get used to the days be with you
Every moments
Every seconds
There are you beside me
If only the days could be back
<'3

I wonder how are you there
Do you miss me too
Are you fine
And all
I was just questioning myself
Without any answer
That day
I saw a post
Your sista school
UITM
Happened something bad
And I don't know why do I care about it
Trying to search who was the one involved
And I found the name
NURUL
Wow
Why such ?
It was your sista name too
I wonder if that really your sista
I don't know
SO
I found out some more articles about it
Then I found
That's not your sista
Then only felt better
Why do I care much about you
Even your family
Why
I wonder why ?

Fine
Everything had passed
I was the one still standing here and don't wanna leave
Since everything had change
The time
The people
The situation
Even the feeling
Why am I still being such stupid
Surrounding here recall everything of us
How I wish
We could be back
As before
:')

But
Whenever I think of her
I just can't get over
I know
Without her blessing
Me and you are nothing
And so
Whatever of us
Are just bullshit
I know
I didn't make a wrong decision
Since she was and will be my everything
All the times
You're too
Now
But I can't make sure for the rest time
Then I had made such decision
That made me suffer like hell now
If only I didn't ask
If only she didn't answer that way
If only you didn't ask that
If only I didn't reply you that way
IF ONLY
Everything had happened
Life still have to move on
I could do nothing for it
I daren't to take any action
I was lost
I tried
I cheer
But I failed once again
Who could help me please
Get out of such doubtful situation
I wonder who can help
And I know
There are only one for me
That's myself
But I just can't handle well this time
Maybe I do really fall hard
<'3

I need you so
I can't let go
I want you still
I always will
Cause you're the only one for me
Westlife - The only one for me

Every song that I'm listening to
I just think of you
Everything happened around of me
I just think of you
Every place I had gone
I just think of you
Tell me how to stop all this stupid action
That only made me hurt more and more
Yet
You won't be back
T~T

I can't smile like before
After what I had done
And recover so soon
And laugh like nothing
Why do you inspire me a lot
WHY
>w<

I always think of
If we are still the same as before
That day
I could talk to you happily
That day
I could hold you
That day
I could own you
:')

Bye once
If only I could do that
<'3

Saturday 5 April 2014

When It Was

When every single second I had miss you
I knew how hard I fall this time
:)

How hurt was it
When you just pass by without any greetings
Yea
Maybe I'm the one who should greet first
Since I'm the one who made all this bullshit
But how could I
Whenever I see you
Just feel like fragiled heart
I can't explain how I feel
Feeling guilty ?
Or sad ?
Or acquaintance ?
Or love ?
:x

I have no ideas with all this
Just feel like if only thing could turn back
And be like what we used to be
The only baby for you
:')
And I didn't say that to you
Pretend like there are nothing happened
Then we can still be so
That's what I want now
May I ?
:/

I know I couldn't turn anything back
And I'm just the stupid idiot making those stupid nonscense to you after all
What had I done ?
Keep on blaming myself
I feel down
What do you feel ?
Not even dare to ask
It's just kinda funny
*tease
:]

Never know the very first sight on you
The very first greet of you
The very first asked by you
And the very first time with you
Had just ended by the way
We aren't want to be so
I would like to apologise what I had done
But I don't even dare to text anymore
If only you don't feel anything
I don't know
Or
It's just hurting each way
And all was just
I think too much ?
'>w<'

Today
I see you
In every of my eyes
When we're getting closer
I don't know how do you feel
And I just feel like holding it back
Are you ?
:)

As if my position was just
Can be pissed off after what I had done
Without any forgiveness or chances for me
Then I would rarely understand
How deep am I in your heart
:)

Always been asked to cheer myself up whenever
Keep on busying myself with nothing
But whenever I stop
I still think of you
Whenever I heard the songs
I still think of you
Whenever I see anything
I'll still think of you
Is it 
I had used to be the way you appeared
And it just needs time to overcome all these
And you'll slowly been missing after all ?
I would like to have the answer
Please
I had suffered a lot due to that
I just don't wanna feel like
Everything down
Can't even concentrate when every moment of my mind was just you
I missed
I loved
I cried
<'3

I'll keep everything in silence
And just let it be
When time past
And God will plan for everything
Just let it be
I will
:)

Saturday 29 March 2014

Life - Don't Judge

Everyone will still need to face the reality
No matter how hard it was
We still need to move on

Life is hard
But we can simplify it
(:

Don't hope for much
You won't get much hurt if you didn't own later
;)

Be positive
Everything will be fine
It's just about timing
We're still the one who will solve it
We'll


A BIT SHARING HERE

If you had did something bad
And others had done something towards you
Don't only know to blame
Please think of yourself before that
Why will one treat you so ?
And why don't they treat others so too ?
Is it the one problem or your own ?
You're the one who need to think logically
Please ?
Judge people like hell
HAHA
fine
Do you think you're right ?
Excuse me
What had you done will bring back to you
This is how's life goes
Returning those you had done to your own
OKAY
Be clear of that and please
Be like a man
Just talk in front of me if you wish
Like a bitch talking behind one
You're just that mother fucker
:)


Had been in good and bad
It's ok
I can still handle my life well
Everything will be fine
I can still go through my life with sweet smiley
I'm still the one
Live for my own
Not for anyone of you
I have my own thinking
I have my own attitude
Never judge
Cause you're not me
Yet
I'm the one limited edition
So please
Don't deny me
Cause here is it
A place for public
A place for us to spread out our thinking
As long as I didn't break any rules
I'll do so
With my personally attitude
If you mind
Please move your ass and go away
Don't ever appear in my life
I won't leave from your life
Cause you're just not even a dust in my life
I can't even see you
The only thing you can see
Was the thing that you had made wrong
And trying to defend yourself for all
So
You judged me
By the stupid idiot way
It's fine
I don't care much about you at all
Yet
Thanks for leaving from my world
Don't feel like meet you
Dirt every single path of mine
Just go
As far as you can
I'll be so thankful to you