Bye Once

I thought I can

I thought I'm tough enough

As if I really do so

:')

Hours by hours

Days by days

Although it was only the second day

I felt bad

Without you

I mean

Can't even see you once

Or keep touch with you

Just don't know why

Maybe

I had get used to the days be with you

Every moments

Every seconds

There are you beside me

If only the days could be back

<'3

I wonder how are you there

Do you miss me too

Are you fine

And all

I was just questioning myself

Without any answer

That day

I saw a post

Your sista school

UITM

Happened something bad

And I don't know why do I care about it

Trying to search who was the one involved

And I found the name

NURUL

Wow

Why such ?

It was your sista name too

I wonder if that really your sista

I don't know

SO

I found out some more articles about it

Then I found

That's not your sista

Then only felt better

Why do I care much about you

Even your family

Why

I wonder why ?

Fine

Everything had passed

I was the one still standing here and don't wanna leave

Since everything had change

The time

The people

The situation

Even the feeling

Why am I still being such stupid

Surrounding here recall everything of us

How I wish

We could be back

As before

:')

But

Whenever I think of her

I just can't get over

I know

Without her blessing

Me and you are nothing

And so

Whatever of us

Are just bullshit

I know

I didn't make a wrong decision

Since she was and will be my everything

All the times

You're too

Now

But I can't make sure for the rest time

Then I had made such decision

That made me suffer like hell now

If only I didn't ask

If only she didn't answer that way

If only you didn't ask that

If only I didn't reply you that way

IF ONLY

Everything had happened

Life still have to move on

I could do nothing for it

I daren't to take any action

I was lost

I tried

I cheer

But I failed once again

Who could help me please

Get out of such doubtful situation

I wonder who can help

And I know

There are only one for me

That's myself

But I just can't handle well this time

Maybe I do really fall hard

<'3

I need you so

I can't let go

I want you still

I always will

Cause you're the only one for me

Westlife - The only one for me

Every song that I'm listening to

I just think of you

Everything happened around of me

I just think of you

Every place I had gone

I just think of you

Tell me how to stop all this stupid action

That only made me hurt more and more

Yet

You won't be back

T~T

I can't smile like before

After what I had done

And recover so soon

And laugh like nothing

Why do you inspire me a lot

WHY

>w<

I always think of

If we are still the same as before

That day

I could talk to you happily

That day

I could hold you

That day

I could own you

:')

Bye once

If only I could do that

<'3

When It Was

When every single second I had miss you

I knew how hard I fall this time

:)

How hurt was it

When you just pass by without any greetings

Yea

Maybe I'm the one who should greet first

Since I'm the one who made all this bullshit

But how could I

Whenever I see you

Just feel like fragiled heart

I can't explain how I feel

Feeling guilty ?

Or sad ?

Or acquaintance ?

Or love ?

:x

I have no ideas with all this

Just feel like if only thing could turn back

And be like what we used to be

The only baby for you

:')

And I didn't say that to you

Pretend like there are nothing happened

Then we can still be so

That's what I want now

May I ?

:/

I know I couldn't turn anything back

And I'm just the stupid idiot making those stupid nonscense to you after all

What had I done ?

Keep on blaming myself

I feel down

What do you feel ?

Not even dare to ask

It's just kinda funny

*tease

:]

Never know the very first sight on you

The very first greet of you

The very first asked by you

And the very first time with you

Had just ended by the way

We aren't want to be so

I would like to apologise what I had done

But I don't even dare to text anymore

If only you don't feel anything

I don't know

Or

It's just hurting each way

And all was just

I think too much ?

'>w<'

Today

I see you

In every of my eyes

When we're getting closer

I don't know how do you feel

And I just feel like holding it back

Are you ?

:)

As if my position was just

Can be pissed off after what I had done

Without any forgiveness or chances for me

Then I would rarely understand

How deep am I in your heart

:)

Always been asked to cheer myself up whenever

Keep on busying myself with nothing

But whenever I stop

I still think of you

Whenever I heard the songs

I still think of you

Whenever I see anything

I'll still think of you

Is it 

I had used to be the way you appeared

And it just needs time to overcome all these

And you'll slowly been missing after all ?

I would like to have the answer

Please

I had suffered a lot due to that

I just don't wanna feel like

Everything down

Can't even concentrate when every moment of my mind was just you

I missed

I loved

I cried

<'3

I'll keep everything in silence

And just let it be

When time past

And God will plan for everything

Just let it be

I will

:)